today was bothe great and not great. perhaps, this is what the chinese call it the yin and yang balance. I feel happy to some extent but not happy. Perhaps, this is what GOD describes as learning experience and calls it LIFE.
went to KKH today and yup i was happy coz i didn't have to go to school and dad was quite nice today considering that he was sending me everywhere and he complained about the school's sytem too that i hated most! you're a great relief(: i really hate school. i never had such a feeling when i was in PHS. i 'd rather camp there than to go home during that time. Well, perhaps, this is what we call it, when you force yourself to like it, you will. Moreover, i really miss you PHSians. I've never had any better experience with anyone plus, *orange was there*. well. things are very different now. no more orange. or maybe like what the dentist told me i literally cannot take such food. Its GOD's plan but i think orange is not only my want, but my NEED. i seriously miss you.
alright. i guess my friends are under the scorching sun doing archery but here i am slacking and revising my irritating maths): i don't feel happy. i want to go somewhere far away i hope i can fill my time like you. i hope i had the freedom to do what i wanted to not think of anything else. i was hoping, i am hoping and i have hoped. the first thing i can do is to hope, and last thing, to hope.
i am not wenyan that you have used to know. i am not quiet. i make noise. i amnot a gentle girl. i smack. i am not a innocent girl. i curse. i am not who i am, because i have changed. the world is changing from bad to horrible and seriously, i don't understand everything. i don't understand the world that i am living in now.
i really pray for one day to come because now, i'm hanging on because _________.
and take care ppl, the swine flu is killing but i shall pray. that we get a 'national holiday' in lieu of it. i'm tired, pray with me.
love,
WenYan(:<3
