i am back from school and there some things that are MUST SAYS!
its quite interesting the way schools are trying to prevent H1N1 cases here but its kinda weird. super weird and shocking when i went into school today morning with everyone all geared up as if preparing to receive H1N1 cases. yeah. teachers dressed up in yellow gowns, covered with masks and all sorts of nonsense. i guess it was more like a hospital. quite interesting though. last time when we had flu and fever, school would still be a MUST thing. quite different now.
had econs paper. felt that i didnt study much for it. hopefully, i can pass. i cant really do everything. but i can say that this paper is do-able. wasnt a difficult paper but i am worried i didnt link back to question and stuff. hmm wells. hallw as extremely cold as if we were at north pole. aminah was cool screaming into the mic, as usual. haha!
alrights, i pray that i have got some enthusiasm to study for my dear CSE paper and hopefully for my history paper as well. notice i did not plan to study for maths. i hate it, seriously. if school was like that everyday, kind of good. miss coming home early like how i used to 2 years ago during sec 4 times..
alright. enough of me crapping and here's wishing all yj kids all the best for block test k!
BYEBYE!
love,
WenYan(:<3
10:14 PM
Saturday, June 27, 2009
okay peeps, i am here blogging i am supposed to be mugging for my block tests but yeah... no mood to study, no mood to mug. thought of sharing some little things and the things that i have done with you guys- perhaps, i might decide to study later.
here's ah gong and ah ma entertained by....
CLISON!
ah ma attempting to scare clison with her face
trying to put him to sleep for 1 hour ...
here they go again- discussion on boys over flowers which led to....
the learning of korean and chinese!
we taught michelle mandarin while she taught us korean(:
so sweet of her!
i was never so enthu about chinese, unlike her
and they were never so enthu about studying- except to learn korean
i think they can get like PhD in Boys over flowers!
and here's a little preview of wenyi trying to grasp the concept..
and finally, when clison is sleeping,
time for aunty bee choo to rest!
yes, as you can see, clison was supposed to be sleeping but in the end he only napped for a while. i think coz we were too noisy. haha. yes, it was super funny coz we thought he was attempting yoga. and michelle's gonna be a great mum coz we've never seen someone so open with kids eh. haha. youre lovely. i think michelle and clison had just brought life to our trips to grandma house. haha. yay! love it.
and secondly, i think grandma house is a great place to study. i love to study there. anyways, thanks diana because if not, i would have thought that CSE was to be tested tomorrow. thanks diana! and had loads of fun trying to learn to talk in baby language.
went for pilates lesson today and it was great. i shall aim to have a strong and good figure! hahahahah! OMG its some DREAM. haha i want to wear the aerobics attire looking good and not looking fat. haha. perhaps, i shall try to exercise. haha.
alrights. i am going to study now. i hope i can talk more about everything soon.
pray for me people, i needa some prayers(:
BYE!
love,
WenYan(:<3
10:57 PM
Friday, June 26, 2009
i just came back from studying with franco, weiliang, yx and kq and winnie too. yes, it was just extremely coincidental. i dont understand why, there's so much coincidence in the world. yes, maybe its god's will.
received the news about quite some things recently. cant believe things are all planned this way. message sent were not received. important messages. misunderstandings never fail to rise. things that i treasure were lost. things that i say were changed. so many things- perhaps it was coincidental. i dont know why i dont know how.
i feel like a ultimate loser now. i have everything and i have nothing. i have everything material. i have money, i have everything i wanted. i am not contented. i have all the luxuries. i have the chance to go overseas, i have the chance to study. i have the chance to eat and i have the chance to live. but seriously, i dont really care about it. i never appreciate such things. maybe its a moment i am enjoying but i dont see why i am doing such things.
i feel so lonely. i feel like crying. i feel like dying. i am so tired. i am so weak. nothing seem to be right for me. everyone's lying to me. please do not pity me, please do not lie to me, please do not tell me the truth. i dont want to help others, i dont want to be nice. i dont want to smile, i dont want to cry. i dont want to write, i dont want to type. i dont want to see, i dont want to hear.
People Change: Four people visit the same scene in different seasons. One may say, it is very good. One may say, it is hot and not so exciting. One may say, it is picturesque. One may say, it is so cold, not much going on!
In our society; Some people may be badly behaved when young, but it does not mean that they are always like that.
Some may be doing bad-deeds before, that does not mean they can not change for the better.
Surely, there is always a bright side in each person, why not give them a chance to help them to become a better person.
Every little does help a lot.
above is some buddhist teaching. obviously i am not so into it. i read it. i understood. i did not feel anything. i hate to lie. i did. i hate myself.
love,
WenYan(:<3
2:24 AM
Thursday, June 25, 2009
and yes hi again with all i have to say. let the pics talk first:
here's mum when she was young with her extremely HIGH pants
dad when he was not so fat- but super NERDY
me and my sister when we went out on tuesday(:
that's what the government say. let the needy sit. so if you have noticed, people try to avoid this seat totally. it is super amazing- when people go in, they auto siam somewhere else.
and most importantly, tay did not submit this student conduct card. i did my work lah. i just did not bring it. OMG! my first time in my life ganna conduct card. disgraceful shit, wenyan.
yeah. and things are not getting any better. but now i feel i do have some personality disorder. i can treat you nice and the next moment forget everything and change my mood to feel like killing you. and this feeling is really real. that's how i felt today. my mood and my thinking changes like so super fast. cant imagine how i did it as well.
so many many things to say to so many many people but i dont really get to meet them.
after all, this is what i want to say:
if you think you can be alone, then dont disturb me in the first place. if you have friends, please do not act lonely and come to me to help you. if you think that you are right, go ahead, i ignore you. if you think that i am stupid, yes i am. i am indeed an idiot. if you think that you want to play and waste my time, forget it. i swear i hate you. if you think that you can control my life, think twice. if you think you are great, a reminder- please get a life. if you think you should die, go ahead, i support it. if you think that you can lie to me, sorry buti take promises seriously.
there is no way i am going to forget what i say when you can just simply ignore a promise. i have no friends. i have just enemies or close friends. i dont like the feeling of standing in the middle. i had the choice of staying in my comfort zone but thanks to you, my life is in a total mess. and here, you just simply say, get out of it yourself. you simple just have to say, move on. who's the one who had put in all these shit for you?
friends, i have to admit, i am stupid. i am dumb. i thought i was right. i am wrong.
feel like going to some beach to camp over tonight. i have so much things to say. to my dear friends, thank you so much. thank you for always being with me. i appreciate you and i love you. to those who think you can make use of me, think twice because, i hate guys.
nights, world.
love,
WenYan(:<3
7:20 AM
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
hi people. i am not so in a good mood today but i really wanted to thank my class for my great fun ytd. thanks alot people. at least, we TRIED to bond(:
walked to pasir ris park from abi's house and here's abi with her bimbotic umbrella(: trying to hide her face!
everyone under the shade of abi's umbrella
fiona, crystal and amanda(:
best satay seller nickman with attempting to make fire,
nickman!
here's a little bday celebration for abigial and jieqi, HAPPY BIRTHDAY
(the shorter is the older one, abigial)
here's abi wishing for her As in her promos- god bless you!
the rest attempting to use eye power(: still trying to start the fire...
the bday cake we FORCED abigial to choose
vegetarian cake- NO EGGS!
vegetarian food- looks are deceiving!
zhuang yi our dear madam who is the motherly one!
who's the smart one who cooked this? ahah!
here's her LITTLE helper, fiona!
yeah, birthday BASH!
crystal, wenyan, jie qi and sophie!
sophie and jie qi AGAIN!
everyone's listening to tracy's story ATTENTIVELY... like some campfire...
look at the mother's sexy legs ! YEAH!
and i did not realise that this was the way to cook sausage!
haha. thats the few photos i have. shall try to cope more and post it up here. yes, woke up in the morning yesterday and went to study with abi and zhuang yi at the library in white sands. then ate because wenyan felt hungry. had some nice porridge and met fiona.. shopped around a little and went on to abi's house. according to her, her house is cramped and messy which i dont notice anything she had described, and her grandma's cute! looked at her photos and played with her computer or a while. had load of nonsense and fun there with the short girl. yes, there were more photos but thank abi for deleting them! haha!
then walked to pasir ris park with the little drizzle. walked from one end to another. it was tiring esp for people with short legs(: guess what, we spotted our class by spotting dhanesh from far! hahahahah! okay dhanesh, we are NOT saying you're fat. yes, those poor vegetarians tried their disgusting food which i dont see how nice i was and then started the bbq proper. loved the conversation about ELASTICITY! anurag and jimmy were funny!(:
started off quite quiet. but after that gossiped alot. i think i must learn to stop gossiping. i realised something too... i CANNOT BBQ. i add oil to fire, add loads of butter, used up all the butter, stop the fire instead of starting it.... blahblahblah! haha(: thank goodness nickman was there. had some little fun there esp with zhuang yi and tracy there.
then dad sent me home with crystal, zhuang yi and abi on the car too. the whole trip was about melaka with crystal trying to be the tour guide. ahha. crystal, i have to admit that YOU'RE GREAT!
yes, as some of your know, i had a super bad flu and a bad fever and headache after my post on tuesday. it was horrible. i wished i had swine flu and dont have to have block test anymore. i hate it, seriously. today morning was worse but thanks loads bestie. youre great. simply the best bestie i can have. love ya loads.
okayokay, i shall ATTEMPT to read something like econs or something before i break out in anger again. yes, AGAIN. i think i have some split personality. and for those who think you are cute, stop it. you are irritating. i seriously think you should kill yourself and give me some peace.
take care, world!
love,
WenYan(:<3
10:42 PM
Monday, June 22, 2009
rights. its kind of seriously long time since i have kept you guys updated about my life. yes. dunno how to explain and not in some good mood to explain them anyway.. haha.
1st attempt using this special function in my phone
sister, grandma and me(:
attempt no 2: while doing this dad fell asleep- this is the result!had 1.99 chicken rice with jw after archery because apparently no one else was available.. shopped with mum and sister on saturday and had this super hot tom yam thing!
but its GREAT!
tuition-ed with bestie yesterday, went to her house and had lunch with her as well!
love ya bestie!
meimei's attemt in making NICE cookies (:
P.S. at least its better than mine!
okay. i am so supposed to be mugging for my blocks but yes i am not. all i am thinking about it everything else and nothing about school work especially maths! haha. received some msg yesterday about the polling of the extention of sch thing. dad was excited about it too. im sorry guys but this is singapore. we HAVE to study yeah? too bad. school resumes as usual.. haha.
this is what dad sent me..
各位同学早
不好太失望
也无须上网
卫生部长讲
假期没延长
准备七点半
一切课照常
除非你中了
超级猪流感
well at least he TRIED to be funny. amazing dad right?(:
going for my lunch now. maybe is shall talk more when i am back or something. have got some secret mission with my sister. haha!
before i go off, here's simething for you. notice what's on the old man in the middle. amazing frail man!
till then,
BYEBYE!
love,
WenYan(:<3
8:31 PM
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
heyhey! if you ever have been wondering what i havent been updating my blog, here's the reason why- I HAVE GOTMY NEW PHONE! so it explains the time i have spent fiddling with it and fantasizing it. never had such a nice and pretty phone lah! gosh and guess what, i need loads of help from my sister to do alot of things on the stupid phone lah. even changing the ringtone, i needed her help too.. haha(: that's so embarassing lah. haha. but im sure i will get the hang out of it soon...
and yes, i feel so accomplished! i revised a little for CSE and did one article review. good job wenyan! haha. i feel a ittle more disciplined today and yes, i did it! hopefully i get to do something better tomorrow.
received a call from wai ling from mercy relief. yes, i signed up as a volunteer there. i am so excited because tomorrow i will be going to help out(: i love to do such things and i seriously wonder why would i need maths for in my life next time. hate maths. full of nonsense! she sounded so nice lah. i hope that one day i will have the chance to go overseas to help out.
OMG read more about the china and tibet issue. hearing from the view from youtube, it sounded quite heart wrenching. listen to what the nuns have to say. poor thing. raped and stuff. Dear God, please help them. save them from all these torture and let them have freedom. have a better life- where ever they go. and god, since you will be helping them and showing them your loving grace, please also give them warmth in their hearts, give them peace in their hearts and most importantly, give them a good hug lord(:
and last but not least, guess what my sister is doing now? she's helping me investigate the phone and see what functions there are and at the same time playing with he camera, again! (:
till then, byebye(:
love,
WenYan(:<3
6:30 AM
Sunday, June 14, 2009
hello world!
i'm back again(: mixed feelings this time. yeah. So many things to say but i think that you all are going to die listening to my nonsense. i am currently sitting in front of the television to type this and praying that i get my phone soon.
these few days were dready as usual and nothing much has been done. i have not eactly studied for my blocks nor have i tried to do some assignments.. this morning went on to amore for pilates class in woodlands. haha. I AM A EMBARASING TEENAGER MAN! i wonder how the old people can balance so well but i cant. OMG its kind of a disgrace haha. yep, and i was quite tired stretching as well. haha. then went on to eat in northpoint- had lontong which was 'awesome inverse'. i hope you understand it. i didnt bother to finish such oily and disgusting food. then went back to woodlands. yes, feel like a idiot. hah. tt's because we were in search of daddy's day presents and i was trying to get a new phone.
yes this is the one. samsung f480 which i think is quite class and nice. hah. and its going to be a extreme change for me as mine was- lousy ): yea. now i think i have to think twice. it is going to be $138. wonder if mummy is going to be nic and get it for me.. ahha! hope so. cant wait for a phone with cameras!(: sorry guys. my blog have been quite empty because i dont really have a personnal camera or a camera phone. i hope i get it and can take more pics yeah?
alright. lesser things about the nonsense and more abnout yesterday. now instead if OMG, perhaps we can change it to OH MY ANWAR! ahah. i think YJ is a temple and archery is a house of GODs. want to know more? join archery. but its gonna be super boring and super tiring. such a waste of my life. then went on to sleep at home and went to walk around toa payoh with wenyi. met 4th uncle under grandma house and we went up together. haha. he kind of funny guy. encouraged me to get LG arena or samsung pixon. but I WILL GET A SAMSUNG PHONE because its my personal promise(: cabbed home and slept..
something stupid i did:
woke up today morning and told my grandmother:' hey let me sleep 15 mins more because i want to see the conclusion of my dream. i will wake up after that'
okay. shall stop here, BYES(:
love,
WenYan(:<3
1:22 AM
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Dear World,
i am wondering now. seriously, what am i living for? alright i shall TRY to list down some things that perhaps, help me answer my question.
educator
volunteer
to see the world
to take care of my parents
blah blah blah. but seriously i have to swear that life without orange is not good. i really dont understand why and how am i going to live on. its not because of him i will die like some serial drama but i seriously do not find any good reason why i should study so hard, work so hard and torture myself. i am very tired. evertime i try to find an excuse for myself. i want to try to think that i am alright. but unfortunately i am not. amen.
life is so tough. if i were christabel just now, i guess i would rather just die there. so much for me trying to help her and some shit just say, we like crowding around her like campfire. i so feel like strangling him at the moment. I HATE YOU WORLD! ARGHH! I dunno how to explain but yes, ARGHHHH! i was trying to avoid orange but i didnt even talk to him. yes. did not even say hi. did not meet. everything that he did, i just did the opposite. i know i am bad but ask me why. i feel so wronged now. i feel like i am suffering here like an idiot because WENYAN YOU ARE AN IDIOT! you know this will happen and you still want to continue with it. SHIT YOU WENYAN.
tuitioned with meihui and murali. did not do anything productive. was like slacking away. i was not concentrating. i was just thinking about the camp and everything else just not on maths. I HATE EVERYHTING. I HATE EVERYTHING. I HATE THE WORLD. i dont like to lie to myself.
i will shut up and move on.
love,
WenYan(:<3
5:18 AM
Monday, June 8, 2009
first of all i am not in a serious good mood today and i think that i am quite irritating today in order to TRY to make myself happy. thanks alot franco and gang. good job and thank you so much and sorry for bothering you. im very grateful. you all are a bunch of interesting people.
perhaps i am in a jealous state. i have been trying to get myself out of this shit but when i always almost conquered it, something have to happen. fate? perhaps,its retribution. felt like blasting so many times today. but i know i couldnt. but i have planned something that i want to do and something that perhaps, can pay a little for my sins. i kept praying and praying. maybe that's the saving factor.
maths was not too bad as joshua and terry were super entertaining and terry was telling me his life stories which was super super interetsting. maybe he should write a book on that.. haha. thanks for making my day a little happier. stayed on in school for some NDP meeting. well, its my first time planning for NDP and i hope its gonna be intersting. love ya priscilla. thanks for the hug(: i really needed someone to hug me now. right now.
went on for tuition and someone was extrememl irritating. if there were ever such a award called 'the most smelly and irritating person', i would gladlygive him that title. seriously, you are a pain in the neck. your voice alone can kill. mr ho was super nice to me today and was quite funny. did complex numbers. i still do not understand why the crazy scientist who love to imagine things like imaginary numbers which totally do not exist in the first place.. i amd so not grateful for your invention because i think its more of a torture than a past. like what sophie mentioned. they found this is their business lah, why do we have to learn them?!
rushed home for piano lesson. yes. ladies and gentlemen, here a preview to my ever boring and packed life. i just cant get used to being alone and being quiet- although i really long for that. noise is good help me cover up my emotions but after all, i need some time for myself. i have learnt that, through the hard way. i think i pissed ms koh off because she totally almost screamed at me and gave me that expression that 'i hate stupid kids like you!'
finally, i have got loads to do and GOD I NEED MORE TIME! there like piles of work and loads of revision for me to do. i promised i will help someone this holiday but i have not even planned anything yet. i want to sort out my life and i want to plan for my future. I NEED TIME, DEAR GOD..
love,
WenYan(:<3
4:37 AM
Friday, June 5, 2009
is it on purpose?
i accept it.
love,
WenYan(:<3
7:07 AM
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
alrights, hey! i have got loads of things to share today. the most important thing is i survived 3 hours of maths today! Good job WenYan!!((: it was like a miracle because from morning i asked my whole family to pray for me and yes, she even gave us lollipops and SHE DIDNT REALLY SCOLD US TODAY. amazingly, she cracked some jokes as well. okay. maybe the 'mutual feeling' thing is quite true. yes.
this was the weird lollipop that she gave which was like 3 in 1 flavour which we were really shocked. as weird as the teacher... haha!
early in the morning was like CSE and Mr Tay was like trying to make fun of me lah! but kind of stupid huh. i didnt really catch it. lucky DBMM translated his sarcasm for me(: ahah. although he's kind of a strict teacher, i think he's still quite good and quite nice. MR TAY, I WILL NEVER FORGET THAT YOU COMMENTED THAT I AM FORGETFUL IN THE REPORT SLIP):
felt like going for shopping yesterday so i went on to date my mum yesterday night for a little shopping trip at the SSC. as boring as ever! the only place that was a LITTLE more interesting was like daiso.. hah, wenyi cant go! yep, got myself 2 little presents:
a super nice rubber band for myself which has a star((:
larnyard that i always wanted! mummy chose this for me(:
i have got something so important to say. i am such a brave young soul and i watched that bloody scenes((: Dear God, i appreciate and thank you for putting me in such a nice country! thank goodness i am safe here. during the show, i was thinking much about orange and what if he went on for war next time. i think i will be better off dead. but i remembered. no 21. thanks abi for reminding me huh.
most importantly, abigial, the surprise is there's no surprise for you.. shall not say anything else((: haha. you wait, and wait longer.. HAH! but you can always plan mine first(:
alright. shall stop my crap here today and start doing something more productive today. maybe i shall start eating! yay!
byebye and goodnights people(:
love,
WenYan(:<3
7:10 AM
Monday, June 1, 2009
i proclaim i hate school. i really do hate school. sometimes, i really try my best to like it but its just so tiring and i have no more energy and no more motivation to strive on there. its just filled with bullshit and rubbish. as old as the school is, it is filled with dust and rust. yes, perhaps some positive people will say, no worries, you can always renovate it. but face it. come one. i will leave the school soon. the only thing i look forward to everyday is to go home and pray that maths would be over soon. seriously ms ng is getting on my nerves and people out there, please do not try to test my patience because its running super super low. i am so losing interest in archery without meihui and yanling soon. you cant just imagine the torture i have in this school.
yes, i came back from the camp yesterday at midnight and thanks dad for sending me home. sorry to have made you send me though you are so tired. yes, made loads of new people- constance, dorcus, yuetling, eileen, christabel, peiling, joleen, clare(: and many thanks to laura, weili, janet and daphne. youve been my super good teammates. i have enjoyed another part of my life. although there are loads of fats in the food but it was freat working with you guys. was station master for some games and realised how blur and stupid i was when i was a cpl last time. it was a pleasure and a honour being a GB girl and thank god(:
i am in such a bad mood today. like to share with you all this song. although its super old but i think its nice and i really felt this song. i totally understand this feeling..
here's ah gong and ah ma entertained by....
CLISON!
ah ma attempting to scare clison with her face
trying to put him to sleep for 1 hour ...
here they go again- discussion on boys over flowers which led to....
the learning of korean and chinese! 
i was never so enthu about chinese, unlike her
and they were never so enthu about studying- except to learn korean 
and here's a little preview of wenyi trying to grasp the concept..
and finally, when clison is sleeping, 
here's mum when she was young with her extremely HIGH pants
dad when he was not so fat- but super NERDY
me and my sister when we went out on tuesday(:
that's what the government say. let the needy sit. so if you have noticed, people try to avoid this seat totally. it is super amazing- when people go in, they auto siam somewhere else.
and most importantly, tay did not submit this student conduct card. i did my work lah. i just did not bring it. OMG! my first time in my life ganna conduct card. disgraceful shit, wenyan.
walked to pasir ris park from abi's house
and here's abi with her bimbotic umbrella(:
everyone under the shade of abi's umbrella
best satay seller nickman with attempting to make fire,
here's a little bday celebration for abigial and jieqi, HAPPY BIRTHDAY
here's abi wishing for her As in her promos- god bless you!
the rest attempting to use eye power(: still trying to start the fire...
the bday cake we FORCED abigial to choose
vegetarian cake- NO EGGS!
vegetarian food- looks are deceiving!
zhuang yi our dear madam who is the motherly one!
who's the smart one who cooked this? ahah!
here's her LITTLE helper, fiona!
yeah, birthday BASH! 
crystal, wenyan, jie qi and sophie!
sophie and jie qi AGAIN!
everyone's listening to tracy's story ATTENTIVELY...
look at the mother's sexy legs ! YEAH!
and i did not realise that this was the way to cook sausage! 
1st attempt using this special function in my phone
attempt no 2: while doing this dad fell asleep- this is the result!
had 1.99 chicken rice with jw after archery because apparently no one else was available..
shopped with mum and sister on saturday and had this super hot tom yam thing! 
tuition-ed with bestie yesterday, went to her house and had lunch with her as well! 
meimei's attemt in making NICE cookies (:
