Dear World,
i am wondering now. seriously, what am i living for? alright i shall TRY to list down some things that perhaps, help me answer my question.
blah blah blah. but seriously i have to swear that life without orange is not good. i really dont understand why and how am i going to live on. its not because of him i will die like some serial drama but i seriously do not find any good reason why i should study so hard, work so hard and torture myself. i am very tired. evertime i try to find an excuse for myself. i want to try to think that i am alright. but unfortunately i am not. amen.
life is so tough. if i were christabel just now, i guess i would rather just die there. so much for me trying to help her and some shit just say, we like crowding around her like campfire. i so feel like strangling him at the moment. I HATE YOU WORLD! ARGHH! I dunno how to explain but yes, ARGHHHH! i was trying to avoid orange but i didnt even talk to him. yes. did not even say hi. did not meet. everything that he did, i just did the opposite. i know i am bad but ask me why. i feel so wronged now. i feel like i am suffering here like an idiot because WENYAN YOU ARE AN IDIOT! you know this will happen and you still want to continue with it. SHIT YOU WENYAN.
tuitioned with meihui and murali. did not do anything productive. was like slacking away. i was not concentrating. i was just thinking about the camp and everything else just not on maths. I HATE EVERYHTING. I HATE EVERYTHING. I HATE THE WORLD. i dont like to lie to myself.
i will shut up and move on.
love,
WenYan(:<3
